Dear Brierley Blogger Buddies,

Thank you so much for all your comments and notes you continue to send. Jill and Casey and the kids appreciate this so much. Jill said today that as hard as this last weekend had been -- all the tests, prodding, poking, operation etc, and recovery -- the blessings of sitting with her family and enjoying the small joys of life ---just being together has been so incredible. They continue to read the notes that you send her through the blog comments or emails.

Here is another picture from the other night. The kids made a tunnel for her to walk through. She continues to improve each day just a little. She enjoyed another Popsicle, walk down the hallways again, and had a little work out on the spirometer (sp?). This is a breathing tube you blow into or out, to help increase your lung capacity. For anyone who has a major abdominal operation, this is an important exercise of 10 times each hour.

Today, while I was visiting, Jill started to relate the story to us about how the Lord blessed her so much last week, in the midst of pain and deep emotional times.

Through this walk, particularily these last 10 days, has been many blessings. But God is so faithful. One of these blessings came by a lady named Diane. Last Friday when Dr. Umon had spoken to the family and explained about the blockage and the prognosis, the family was very emotional. It was a very difficult time. Then Jill says that one minute later, In came a lady Diane who Jill had met maybe a few times through church. . She had heard about Jill and that she was in the hospital. Diane felt led that she had a word to share with Jill and the family. The timing was perfect Jill says. Jill and Casey said both of them were so amazed by this ladys story and she was such an encourager and and comfort to them as they had to make decisions about the operation and Jill's choices. Jill was talking about this again this morning, She was just remembering how she just knew the Lord was with her and that the words spoken were just for her. Thank you Diane for the blessing that you were to this family.

I had a very short visit with Jill today. Her family continues to surround her with love and devotion. Thank you dear friends for surrounding Jill and her family with your love and prayers.

Today when Fritz, my husband prayed for her, he encouraged her to keep her eyes on Jesus. I thought that was also a good word for each of us. Keep our eyes on Him, and everything else falls into the right perspective. Blessings.

Dear Brierley Blogger Buddies,

My sister Jill today was sharing things she would like on her blogger for all her friends. Since she began this journey of walking with cancer 4 years ago, she has always chosen to be open about what is happening with her body. She has continually wanted to educate others to what happens, because she knows there are other's out there who are facing or will be facing similar decisions. So I am sharing today from our conversation this morning.

Ever the educator, one of her requests is for people to know what is happening with her. For example, she has a "Peak" right now. Its actually a NG tube, a gastrointestinal tube that sucks the bile out of her stomach. At first last week, when she first had it, she wasn't sure she liked it. Later she realized it was a life saver for her and her friend. It has helped her to stop throwing up. With the blockage in her small intestines, nothing went down and all came up. She was wasting away for two weeks, and though we had an idea it was the cancer, but there were a lot of unanswered questions. Once she had the operation on Monday, they realized her small intestines are filled with cancer, causing the blockage. This is one of the results of ascitis. This cancer fluid builds up in the body cavity. It was drained from her lungs 2 times now. Also from her gut area. She has had every test, poke and prod the last few weeks it seems. But being Jill, she didn't want to stop trying to find out WHY this is happening. With the surgery, Jill took a big chance. There was only a 20 % chance as we understand, that she would make it through surgery. I remember saying goodbye to her last weekend on the phone. I really sincerely thought I would never see her again. And then, the amazing story of what God continues to do through Jill, and in His grace, she made it through and is slowly recovering. Yet, she also knows she is full of cancer in the small intestine area. Chemo is not an option now that she has had the operation and needs to recuperate. The doctor did a bypass over much of her small intestines. This special doctor let Jill and Casey know the risks and gave Jill choices. Jill, always willing to take a chance went for it. Now she is slowly recovering and making some progress every day. Today she has less tubes, and she is eating a popsicle again. Yeah!

Besides her G tube, Jill does have a feeding tube also called a TPN ( I think that is what it is). Jill has not had food by mouth since about August 18th or around there. TPN gives her the nutrients she needs, and the trace minerals all of us need to sustain life. This is helping in her recovery right now. How long this will be is one of the questions and decisions she will have to decide with her family in the coming weeks. Most importantly for her family is that she is out of pain and not throwing up. She had another double Popsicle today after her walk on the floor. When she would be able to have more food will be for the doctors to decide.

Her family's goal is to keep her out of pain, and as comfortable as possible. As you can see from the pictures last night the whole family hangs out together. Jill is in the middle, loving every minute. She realizes if she had passed away last week, she would have missed out on these particularly beautiful times with her family as they adjust to this new phase of her life. Her special blessings have been the one on one time with her kids in the evening. Last night she had a special time with Brigitte that meant so much to her. One morning , it was Casey at 4 in the morning!

Each member of the family is treasuring any of this special time that they have.

One of her favorite songs that she listens to on her Ipod is "Imagine" by Mercy Me. One of the lyrical lines says --" I can only imagine, what it will be like, when I walk by your side. I can only imagine what my eyes will see when your face is before me, I can only Imagine.....". its a song about heaven and where she is going. She keeps this always close to her to listen to.
We are praying for the Lord's will for Jill and her walk on this earth. We know the days are numbered, as they are for each of us. But she wants you to know also that God is Faithful and He is with her,.... . Jesus is walking by her side.

Pictures to Share:

1. Tucker our nephew wrote a special note to Aunt Jillie Bean and he drew his first heart. Thank you so much Tucker. Aunt Jillie Bean loves this especially because it is from you.

2. Louie, our brother, Nicky and Jill taking a walk on the floor. It is a special memory for the 4 of us to take this walk together. I am here behind the camera taking the picture.

Thank you for your continued concern and your prayers for our Jill. More tomorrow. Sweet dreams my dear sister.

From Lorette

Dear Brierley Blogger Buddies,

I know from your comments and emails, so many are watching this page. Jill is improving each day a little. Today she ate a popsicle, took a very nice walk; she was able to sit up for a very long period with the Gtube off, and enjoy family time last evening. I was with her in the morning, but she was sleeping most of that time. In the evening when I was back, I walked in to her room, and this is what I saw -- Jill sitting happily with her family all watching a movie together. The family is treasuring this time with her. Thank you for your continued prayers of support and love. We are trying to keep up with all your messages. In His Love, Lorette Harnsberger

Loretteharnsberger@yahoo.com

Hello blogger friends.

Jill had a rough night, but is so much better now. Jill has had to make a transition from the epidural to a new pain med -- don't ask me names --She just gets to push a button and she is relieved. I had a morning time with her, though she slept most of that time. This afternoon, with Brigitte and Kyle and Casey, she was taking a walk, just before I left. The Dr. was pretty upbeat today, that Jill is progressing well from this difficult surgery. Casey will need to update us more on this later.

She is blessed by all the love being shared with her through notes, emails, cards and the comments on this blog. Casey tries to read through them with her. Thank you for all the continued prayers. Anytime we have is a treasure and each day a blessing. She has been saying this for many years now.

Dear Brierley Blogger Family,

At this time, Jill has been having poor sleep and is resting today. The family via my sister Nicky has said no visitors so that she can continue to rest. Keep her in your prayers as the recovery from the surgery has been more difficult these last 2 days.

On one of our family evenings as we were walking around, Bonnie recorded this video. Its was such a random thing, yet Jill was so sure of what she wanted to say.

Listen quietly. I have also her words:

JILL'S VOICE"

HELLO BRIERLEY BLOGGERS
THANK YOU ALL FOR FOLLOWING THIS JOURNEY WITH ME. I LOVE YOU ALL AND I AM GOING TO JUST KEEP JOURNALLING AS LONG AS I CAN. I HAVE MY SISTERS AND FAMILY AND FRIENDS ALL HERE SUPPORTING ME HELPING ME.

I JUST KEEP ThIS THING GOING. GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND REMEMBER WE ARE ALL IN GOD'S HANDS AT ALL TIMES.


LOVE YOU GUYS, From Jill.

She asked me to share some scriptures also about this journey. I will update you with this later today. Thank you so much for your prayers and concern. All our Love, Lorette ( Jill's sister) loretteharnsberger@yahoo.com

Dear Brierley Blogger Buddies,

Thank you for your continued prayers and love that you have sent. The family was gathered together again today with Jill. Here she is up to take a walk. She did two rounds today, two times. Amazing -- what a miracle that she is still with us. In this picture she is dressed in her Louis Vutton designer hospital gown, and walking with her entourage. We are running this race together every step of the way.

She sends everyone her love and like the apostle Paul, she sent out a little message.

Phil. 1;3 " I thank my God upon every remembrance of You".

So also Jill treasures all her special friends who have followed her through this journey of cancer. We have a video of this time today, that we will post later, along with Jill's message to everyone. If you post any comments below, Casey or one of the kids will be able to read them to her.

Posted by Lorette

Dear Blogger Buddies,

I can see from emails that people are looking for updates. Right now my understanding is that family is with her, maybe one or two at a time. She is in recovery still and will be for a long while. She continues to be herself and be concerned about everyone around her. Just like Jill. Hmmmmmmmm That's sounds like a new Logo or saying " Just like Jill". So today as I am far away, and I have this access to her blog -- I think about what Jill is like and how she is such a charger -- she really is an amazing and special person who has tons of friends -- Both Jill and Casey have tons of friends. So thank you for your continued love and concern for them.

Jill always like to share a verse or something that has touched her.

So "Just Like JILL", we have a little something to share for you.

When our sister Michy was in a fatal car accident over 30 years ago, the Lord gave me this verse. " Psalm 91" I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress, my God in Him will I trust." Jill is truly trusting the Lord with her life.

The picture is from 2 weeks ago, during her 2nd stay in the Hospital. She still looks the same really. Just in bed mostly. Thank you for all the love and concern for Jill and Casey and the family.

Please watch the blog, as you might not get an update email. Its not working all the time at least from my computer. When Jill or Casey are up to it, I am sure they will have another blog update for everyone. You can add your comments at the bottom. We will try to make sure the family gets the messages.

Thank you so much.

Lorette Harnsberger

Loretteharnsberger@yahoo.com

Dear blogger friends,

This update came in from Casey by text. " Jill had a small intestine blockage which was operated on. It may take 2-4 weeks for recovery. They also found that the cancer had spread more than what had shown on the scans, so this type of blockage could happen again. Please pray for her comfort and for a miracle!" -- Casey Via Nicky

From Lorette

Thank you for your continued concerns. I know my sister is not afraid of what the future holds for her. She knows where she is going. The process is the hard part for all of us. Last year she read a book called " 90 minutes in Heaven". It was such a comfort to her to learn about what heaven is like. I know she has told many of you about this book. I did read the book and I was comforted also. We do hope for a miracle of course. Who wouldn't. Yet If Jill could write this blog, she would let you know " I know where I am going!". We will keep you updated as best as we can.

All our love to you,

Loretteharnsberger@yahoo.com

Please check this blog for updates. We will try to do so each day. As we are trying to update from a different email address, some of the emails that Jill would send are not recognizing my email address and it is not going through. Thank you for your calls and emails of true concern for Jill. She knows you are all praying for her.

Dear Brierley blogger buddies,

It's noon and my sister Jill is out of surgery now. She went through surgery as we thought she would. She is in recovery now. They had to cut a section out of the small intestines and resection it. . The family is there, waiting to see her. She will be in recovery for a while. I will update you a bit more shortly. I am getting phone calls now. Keep praying for a miracle, as I know you all are.

From Lorette Harnsberger

loretteharnsberger@yahoo.com

You can call me at home 805 565 0760

I will do my best to answer any questions.

As you can imagine, Jill's family is not able to return calls at this time.

Dear Friends,

Today the good news is that they have found the blockage. -- Jill is feeling better today according to Bonnie. She has walked, had a popscicle, and the medications are helping to stop her upset tummy for a bit. They finally found a blockage in the small intestines which explains why she has been having trouble keeping food down.

The blockage is operable. What they will find in the surgery is still a question but there is some hope. They have talked with the doctor today, and Jill wants to go for it. You all know Jill and she is such a charger! Her family is there now with her. Her surgery is planned for 7:30 tomorrow morning. Please keep her in your prayers today, tonight, and especially tomorrow morning. The recovery from surgery will be 10-14 days.

Anyway, tomorrow, if you think about it... wear something cheerful that reminds you of Jill. Keep her in your hearts and prayers as she goes through this surgery. Also keep her family in your prayers. Casey, Bonnie & Ricky, Sean and Alexis ( Sean's girlfriend) , Kyle, and Brigitte as they gather around her tonight. Nicky, our other sister will also be there along with her husband Tom.

Thank for all your concerns for my sister Jill,

Love,

Lorette Harnsberger

Loretteharnsberger@yahoo.com

Hello Bloggers!! I'm finally able to get on a my computer and give you and update as to what has been going on. But first I want to say thank you so much to all my wonderful friends and family who have shown such love and care in the past few weeks. I have truly felt your love and prayers and they have been an enormous help to me, to Casey and to my kids. You are all amazing and I love each and everyone one of you. The pic is from the last hospital stay, not this one.
Ok, so it started back August 6th at our family reunion as my last post said. I did end up going in a second time the weekend of the 22nd and stayed a few days again in the hospital. August 24th I had chemo and that wasn't so bad because it helped with the growing ascities. The Ascities is what is causing all the problems. Too much fluid in the gut and lung area. This past Monday I was feeling so bad I ended back in the hospital for the third time. This time I'm at John Muir in Concord which is a much better hospital where they can do some real testing and monitoring. I now have an NG tube. It's a tube that goes from my nose down to my throat and into my stomach to relieve all the bile I've been producing. I also have now a TPN line. That is a line that goes into my artery in my arm that give me nutrition. I'll be on that for a few weeks or months I think. A nurse comes to the house each day to help switch the nutrition bag until Casey gets it figured out. It's a lot to deal with because my blood sugar has to be tested every 4 hours along with other stuff. I also had to have an study dye enema today to see what is all the problem. Thank goodness there is no blockage or tumor that is causing the problem, just the ascities as they thought. Truly a blessing. It could have been much worse. So at this point I am still at John Muir and not sure when I'll be home, but I will be home sometime and out walking my dog Kiwi again soon. As I said, thank you again for all your love, prayers and support over these past few weeks. It's been rough but with God right next to me I know I'll be fine no matter what.
2 cor:4:17-18 For our light affliction which is but for a moment works for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory. While we look not at the things that are seen, but at the things that are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporal but what is not seen is eternal.

Hello Blogger Buddies, the pics are from our annual family reunion. This time it was in Santa Cruz over looking the water. Beautiful spot where were watched the seals, dolphins and other sea life daily. The weather wasn't the best but the company was. We also got to go visit Kyle at his latest work site. He's working at a lagoon clearing off the tool leaves and dredging. He's even using the excavator and having fun with it. He'll be there for another 4 weeks working on the project. I had a good time but unfortunately I got pretty sick there. My belly ballooned out and I had a harder and harder time breathing so on Friday we went straight from the reunion to the dr where they promptly checked me into the hospital. Turns out I was drowning. My lungs were in cased in fluid more that half way up my back. They drained my stomach of 2 liters and both my lung cavities of 1 liter each. Not a fun procedure but I at least I can breathe again. Now I have to get back on treatment right away because the fluid will continue to build up again. So tomorrow I go in for treatment. I am nervous about it because I don't' feel good now and I'll get hit hard tomorrow. I haven't even been able to hold down water so far so I'm not sure how I'll handle treatment. Please keep me in your prayers that my body responds to the treatment and that I start to be able to hold down fluid of any kind. Through this time I have continued to feel blessed by so many friends and family that have called, texted, emailed and prayed for me. This is not a fun time for me or my family but together we will get through knowing that I continue to be in God's plan and His graces.
Psalm 34:1-4 I will extol the Lord at all times; his praise will always be on my lips. My soul will boast in the Lord; let the afflicted hear and rejoice. Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together. I sought the Lord and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.

Hi everyone, I hope your summer is going well. We just had our Relay for Life event and our team, Hope West Coast, made over $11,000 for American Cancer Society. Thank you to everyone who helped make this year such a success. We could not have done it without all your generous donations. So thank you. The other pic is of Carrie, my co-team captain who did an incredible job of fundraising, and the other is of one of Betsy, one of my daily walking partner. The boys participated in "Little Ms Relay" and in one lap made $164 for the team. They were pretty cute too!!! As for me, I was wiped out after the event! It's a lot of work and is very tiring. It took me until Tuesday to feel normal again. But it was worth the effort because one day cancer will be wiped from our vocabulary. It'll be just a bad memory like the Black Plague of the 1500's. As for my health, I'll be back on Folfox starting August 16th, when I get back from our family reunion. My chemo break is quickly coming to an end. But it's been nice. I've still issues with bowels ( it goes with the territory) and I also believe I had an Asthma attack so now I'm on an inhaler. I haven't had that in 3 years so it took me, and my doctors, by surprise. My blood and tumor marker (CEA) are normal and that I am very grateful for. For those who have been wondering about my father, he is doing good. Not gaining any weight and seems to be stable. He'll be with us at the family reunion. My mother-in-law is all moved in and seems to be enjoying her new digs up in Reno. She is in much better shape now that she is eating and exercising everyday. And she has won Bingo twice now!!! I hope everyone has a nice summer vacation and gets to enjoy some time with family and friends because that is what living is about. God bless you all and thank you again.!
Check out this one minute sermon. It's really good
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/video/video.php?v=10150208006915385&ref=mf

Good evening Bloggers, It's three more days till Relay for Life and things are getting busy around here. Thank you to all those who have already supported me in this big event. It's not too late if you still want to donate or sign up for a luminaria bag. Here is my link page: http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY10CA?px=9374997&pg=personal&fr_id=20507

The first pic is of my friend Zoe (husband Gary is taking the pic) who I have known since 9th grade. We've been going to the fair every year together. The other pic is of our friends Adrianne and Dave whom we've know for almost 32 years. We were in Monterey with them. We are truly blessed to have such warm loving friends for so long.
My father was back in the hospital last week for about 4 days. Again the weight gain due to kidney failure and an infection in his body. Plus he had an allergic reaction to the meds they gave him and he ended up with hives on his legs and arms. Not a happy camper for sure. Anyway, he is home now, has had his defibrillator turned off and will go on hospice the next time he has the weight gain. It could be in a few weeks or maybe a month or two??? He's in Gods hands and he is at peace with his decision.
Last week Casey and I drove to LA to pack up Casey's mothers' furniture and cloths. She has been moved from Torrance where she lived for 55 years and now lives in Reno with Kathy, Casey's sister. At 88 yrs, we felt it was no longer safe to live by herself in her home. She seems to be doing well with the adjustment.
As for me, today I got the results from my CT that I had back in June. I've had very little growth both in the lung and gut area. Small enough changes, but enough to make me go back on chemo in August. It showed a tiny bit of fluid in left lung and small new ascites (fluid) in the gut area, but mild. Today the Dr. was concerned with the fluid buildup in my left lung because I have had breathing issues this past week. Even though he could not hear anything and he said my lungs sound clear, he sent me for an Xray (STAT) thinking I will need to have my lung drained to make me more comfortable. The Xray showed no fluid buildup. Praise the Lord!!! No draining needed. I think I just had an asthma attack and since I didn't have any inhaler at hand, it's taken longer to go away. I used to have asthma and inhalers but the stuff was old so I tossed them. I'm getting a new inhaler tomorrow. I've also had ongoing bowel issues and I'm guessing it's from all the chemo I've had. The colonoscopy I just had in June stated that the colon was some what swollen and irritated. The dr said today that it's unusual what he's seeing with me. He said he usually doesn't see this kind of symptom because most people don't live this long with the disease. He said more and more patients are living longer with the disease so this is new territory. I think they are living longer because they are getting dx at an earlier age and are stronger and more able to fight longer. So please get your colonoscopy and don't' delay. So as of today, I'm feeling pretty good except for the breathing and the bowel issues, but I'm not complaining. I get to wake up and see a beautiful sky and enjoy a new day. As I've said before, all my days are good, I just may have some bad moments in the day.
Now for a bazaar story: Last Wednesday night Casey and I were driving back up to the bay area. At about 11:30 pm, I turned off an off ramp to switch driver. As I was getting back into the passenger side I noticed a small black wallet in the dirt. I opened it and found a small red camera. When I showed Brigitte the camera the next day, she and I tried to see if we could find a name or something to help us find the owner. but we didn't have any luck at first. However, Brigitte noticed that some of the pics were taken up in Chico, in Upper Bidwell Park and also of a dorm room with lots of pictures on a wall. Kyle got the camera zoomed onto the wall with pictures and found a name. Brigitte went on facebook with the name and found the girl. Sure enough! She goes to Chico and she had lost her camera on her LA trip. We are meeting her tomorrow to return the camera back to her. One up for technology!!!
Thank you all for your continued love, support and prayers for almost four years. Yes, it'll be 4 years next month. I've learned so much on this journey and I hope in some way you have too. I've also learned the importance of living for the moment and not worry about tomorrows. God has been my rock and my salvation and He will continue to lead me on this path. I can only hope and pray that one day if you ever find yourself in need, that you will remember to turn to God.
Psalm 18:2 The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

Hi blogger, Well Sean did it! He graduated from Cal State East Bay a week ago. The pic is from left, Alexis, Bonnie, Sean, Brigitte, Kyle and Ricky. The other pic is of the kids graduation party celebrating by playing flip cup in our backyard over the weekend. I guess that's what you learn in college??? Sean will continue to work for AMR and will start to apply for fire jobs once again. Because of cutbacks it may be more challenging than completing school! As for Kyle, he started a new job in construction and seems to really like it. It's a small local company that deals with aquatics and dredging mostly in the bay area for commercial and public works. It's a real blessing when these guys can come out of school now and get a job. Boy have times changed in the past few years...
As for me, I had my annual colonoscopy on Monday. All was clear!!! They didn't even take a biopsy of anything! The one thing that was noted was a rectal fistula (a very small hole in the rectum) that will have to be addressed. The dr thinks it's caused from damage to the rectum when I had radiation. I see my colorectal surgeon next Monday to discuss what to do about it and also to talk about replacing my port that has quit working. I guess I wore this one out. I also have a CT Monday so please keep me in your prayers. I've been off of all chemo since the middle of May and it's been great. So if the CT is ok, I'll stay off through July at least...we'll see. I know I'm in Gods plan so I'm not too worried about the results. Quartly CT's keep me aware of how much I need and depend on God for my life both physically and mentally. He gives me the peace I need to cope with this disease. Chemo and Radiation do break down the body but Job clarifies what is important. Job 19:25-27 I know that my Redeemer lives and that in the end He will stand upon the earth. And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh I will see God . I myself will see him with my own eyes, I and not another.

Hi Blogger Buddies! I hope everyone is doing great! The pics are of Kyle at his graduation last Friday in Chico CA. Yes, he is finally done with Construction Management. Now he just has to get a job!!! If he doesn't find one soon, I have LOTS of repair that needs to be done around my house. That should get him looking for a real job fast! He's also motivated to find work because he really doesn't want to live back at home after being out for about 5 years. He moves in this next week so it's going to be a little trying getting used to having him around again. Brigitte will also be moving in but just until the beginning of August. She starts her student teaching Aug 11th in an elementary class up in Chico. I guess I'll have to start cooking dinners every night again. At least I won't have leftovers go bad in the frig anymore!
Well, I'm on a chemo holiday now. It happened because after the number 8 treatment I got the flu and was sick for about a week. Really sick. Casey even got sick himself but he recovered within 4 days. So when I was scheduled for #9 treatment I told the dr I couldn't do the full treatment because I hadn't recovered fully from the flu. She gave me a lighter treatment but again I got really sick and it took about 2 weeks to get back to somewhat normal. By this time I decided to go to my GI doctor and discuss the issues I was having. That was a prayer answered immediately because the day I called, they had an opening and I got right in. That never happens unless God intervenes! So in I went and my GI doctor really listened to me and my concerns. He was great and really made me feel like he cared! He decided I may have an infection in the colon or something that can come up with all the treatments I've had. He had me do three stool tests and he's testing for about 10 different things including testing for gluten tolerance. I'll know in about a week the results. I'm also going to have my annual colonoscopy in late June. Yes, it's annual so you people that haven't had one or need to schedule, remember, I get to have one EVERY year!!! It's no big deal so get it done....I needed to make my push! Anyway, since I'm having issues, my GI dr said I should not have any more chemo until I've had the scope; hence the chemo holiday. Hopefully it's just an infection and not the cancer growing, but I'm not too worried about it. My GI said the cancer doesn't cause the issues I've been having. I"m still walking almost everyday and active as ever. Thank God I have kept up my strength. I have way too much living to do including the Relay for Life walk in July. If you are able to help support me in this wonderful cause I would be very grateful. It's a very important event that will help all of us and our children, and their children and ... Cancer touches almost everyone in some way and we have to stop it. Raising funds to help with this fight is so important so please if you can help by visiting my Relay page at
http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY10CA?px=9374997&pg=personal&fr_id=20507 (cut and paste this link into a new window please)
and click on donate. If you would like a luminaria bag in memory or honor of a loved one, please sign up for that as well. It's a nice way to remember those who have fought the battle.
Thank you in advance for your help and please continue to keep me and my family in your prayers that the cancer doesn't grown while I am on a chemo holiday. I know that God hears my prayers because He lets me know I am not alone in this journey. I was pretty down when I made the call to my GI but when I got in the same day and felt the doctor listened and cared, I was once again reassured that God is in control and leading me in this path. I am on His time and no one else. Acts 2:25-26 "I saw the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will live in hope". I live in hope because God lives in me.

Hi Blogger world! It's a beautiful day in Pleasanton. The first pic is of Casey, Bonnie, Ricky and me getting ready to run/walk a 10K race in San Francisco this morning. It was warm and clear and perfect! Bonnie and I were the walkers of the 6.2 miles which took us up and across the Golden Gate Bridge and back again in just under an hour and a half. I felt so blessed to be able to do the walk without any issues or problems and in such great weather. The second pic is of my dad at his 90th party with his grandsons. He was so happy and has been doing really well ever since. My dad loves parties!!!
As for my health, I'm doing good. I have my 8th drip tomorrow so I'm preparing by drinking lots of fluid today. My last blood count showed every part of my counts were in the normal range. That includes the platelets, red and white cells and all the other parts of the CBC (complete blood count). I also had my cholesterol checked and it went up to 190 from about 160. I asked my homeopathic dr I saw last week and she said there have been studies the show when your body is fighting a disease, then your cholesterol will rise like mine has and it was a good sign. I was surprised that she said it was good. Who would have thought having your cholesterol go up was good!!! She also agreed with me going gluten free. She has been gluten free herself for over 12 years. She said the constant chemo does a number on the system and the gluten puts more stress on the intestines so I'd be better off without gluten, so now I am learning a new way of eating and cooking. I have also been busy becoming a "buddy" for the Colon Cancer Alliance, and have been asked to speak on two different occasions. What a blessing!!! I am also doing the Relay for Life and have a team again. I will keep fighting for a cure in every way I can because way too many people are DX each day. Cancer seems to touch us all in some way whether self, family member or friend. If you can help in anyway by donating, coming out to walk or joining my team, that would be great. My relay page is
http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY10CA?px=9374997&pg=personal&fr_id=20507
Please keep me in your prayer for an easy drip tomorrow without nausea and problems. I've been doing really well since January and I want it to continue. Thank you all for your continued love and support as I walk this journey. Even thought life takes turns when and where we least expect it, we can always find something good along the path by trusting in God and letting Him lead the way. In Philippians 4:10-14 Paul writes that he knew how to be content whether he had plenty or whether he was in need. The secret was drawing on Christ's power for strength. God is truly my strength that I rely on and we are all blessed that He is there for us always. God bless you all and enjoy the sunshine!

Good morning Blogger Buddies, and happy Patty's Day (one day late)! The pics are of Sean and his girl friend Alexis and Casey and me at a recent wedding we went to. Well, all the prayers and good wishes helped because my latest Ct was great! The ascities (fluid in the belly) is almost all gone and no new growth or change with the tumor in the lung. That is great news and a true blessing from God. Even the dr was surprised and very happy about the results. The scan did show a little, less than an ounce, of fluid in my right lung. He said it could be "sympathetic fluid" from the gut or the remains from the bronchitis I had. I had only had two doses of antibiotics when I had the CT. He was not at all concerned and said it would most likely disappear. If it doesn't and it grows then it can be remove easily. I knew something was amiss because during the week of treatment I get a sharp pain in my right lung, but just for about 7 days then it's gone. During that time it's hard to take a deep breath so fluid can build up. Chemo can cause all sorts of joint and body pain and this is just one of those side effects. I'm feeling good now and that's great so thank you all for your continued prayers. I'm living proof that prayers do work because I'm past the time I should have been here and now I'm on Gods time. And with His blessings I'll be on His time for a long time!!!! When I went in to get the news of the CT, my heart was beating and my blood pressure was up, but that was just physical. My mind was on Jesus and knowing that I'm in His plan. Both Casey and I have great comfort in knowing and believing that. And because I have been so comforted and at peace, and I am doing well physically, I was asked by the colon Cancer Alliance if I would become a "buddy" to people who have just been diagnosed. I would help guide them and walk them through treatment. That is something I have been wanting to do for a long time; to be able to help others get on the right track with treatment and also so show them Gods peace and comfort in times of trials. So another prayer has been answered.
2 Corinthians 3-4 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all or troubles, so that we can comfort those in an trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
Have a happy spring weekend and go out and enjoy the sunshine.....at least for Californians!

Good morning bloggers. Today is a busy day for me. I have a CT at 11:40 this morning at UCSF, then off to see King Tut and then back to Walnut Creek where I am a guest speaker for a program offered to the public on survivor-ship for colorectal cancer. It's colorectal cancer awareness month and the push is on to get the word out about the importance of screening and early detection. So if you are 40 plus (insurance says 50 but I believe otherwise) and have any symptoms please get scoped. If you are 50 then just go get scoped with or without symptoms. Early detection will save your life. This link will tell you the symptoms to look for. http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/colon-cancer/DS00035/DSECTION=symptoms
So today I am asking for prayers for a clear report from the CT. As I lay on the table I truly can feel Gods presence and your prayers so keep them coming. I have the follow up appointment on the 16th so I won't know until then. On a sad note, my very oldest and dear friend Mary passed this past Friday. We started our lives together back in Burbank as babies and went to first grade together. We ended up graduating from high school together in Torrance and were in each others weddings. We stayed in contact through raising our kids and ironically we both ended up with ports in our chest for our 50th. We traveled through our illness together for the past years and laughed and cried many times via phone, visits, email and text. She got a cold last week and it took her life away. I miss her terribly but know that she is with God, free of disease. The pic is from the early 60's in Burbank. My sister and I have gloves on and Mary is next to Nicky in the back row. This verse is for my dear friend Mary.
John 14:1-4 "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; Trust also in me. In my father's house are many rooms; if it were not so I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you with me that you also may be where I am. You know the place where I am going."
I thank Jesus everyday for preparing a place for me too. God bless you all and go out and enjoy each day to the fullest. AND GET SCOPED!